I feel like I'm on a see-saw and getting seasick. lol There are things I want to do when I have the energy but don't seem to be able to get going. Dh is doing well on the mild anti-depressant, no outburts to speak of, and only 1 mild upset last weekend. I feel like now I can get to a few of my own projects like quilting, beading, and my genealogy research. When I am feeling good, like today, I am anxious to get at it, as soon as I get the last of the books packed into boxes (7 already and about that many to go). Then when I am wiped out and in my recliner for the day, I think I should just let it all go. But I know I need to do something other than just sit and stare at the TV with a book on my lap to read during commercials. lol I have always liked to learn, and could be a perpetual student. I think the genealogy research is something I can do without much energy expenditure, quilting involves bending over a cutting table and gets to my back. Beading enjoyable, working out the patterns, and I have beautiful necklaces to wear. And I like trying new techniques. I think I have just clarified what I need to do to keep me sane, putting it down in print helps. Now I will pay the bills, box up the rest of the books, get the living room and bedroom curtains adjusted and up, and sit down with my bead catalogue and start a major order.

I really like quiet these days. It is so under-rated. Kudos and much admiration to you. My home is very disorganized at the moment. But in 15 minutes, I can find just about anything . I hope you will photograph some of your work and inspire us.

Thank you all for your responses. I geuss I am lucky, no bead shops here. But...my bead catalogue is well used and I do enjoy internet shopping, have really gotten some nice stuff just by browsing the sites. However, I hide the plastic while I search. lol

Things are quiet here now, the anti-depressant seems to be working. I'm getting some major organization done, sacks of books sorted, labeled, and into 11 bankers boxes and stacked (neatly) back in the closet. Now I can concentrate on getting my bead stuff organized and start working at redoing some necklaces. By the end of August I will have a major bead order ready that should keep me busy for months.

Hope everyone had a great 4th, ours was quiet.

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sit down with my bead catalogue and start a major order.

OMG!!!! I am not allowed to look at those!! Nor am I allowed to go within 50 feet of a bead shop. I seem to lose a LOT of money when I get too close to beads...

Just kidding, of course! I am glad to read that you are keeping yourself busy and have some creative interests to pursue in between caregiving.

Yeah, it's a see-saw roller coaster for sure! Enjoy the "routine" times and squeeze in as much peace for yourself as possible, as that will help carry you through the times when things get more ...ummmmm.... exciting.

Hang in there! {{{{{HUGS}}}}}

Aw, farmgirl, I often have heard this ride compared to a roller coaster, but seesaw is very good, it takes two.

I remember you like beading. So glad to hear you are ready to start again. It is very important to find something for yourself in all this. It is your life, too.

You GO, Girl!