I just read the postings from all those who are losing sleep at night with spouses pacing at all hours. I don't have that problem, I am just tired. Tired of watching him lose a little more ground, tired of seeing him reading, then dropping off to sleep the next minute, tired of watching him carefully navigate the apartment and praying he doesn't fall, tired of seeing him becoming unable to do small things, like putting on his socks and tying his shoes, tired of seeing the pain of having to give up chores he considered his, like making ice cubes and taking out the trash. Just plain tired. Bone tired. Too tired to rest sometimes. But then, who isn't?

Farmgirl, I am well past the sadness you are now facing.
Hubby is unaqble to do anything .Not my companion but I try to be one for him.I go in and talk to him with an every day conversatio.
Today I told him I am getting old for the job and was afraid I would be fired.I ask him if he would speak to the boss on my behalf.He told me he would.I talk to him about the snow, about my car not starting.About how strong his aide is.He said I know that.If he is not in the mood I just converse on his agitation level.
I do find things to keep me busy.Doing crafts has been so good for me.I am about finished paiting a book case from a garage sale.
Next I want to try working with ceramic tiles.Bought 4 plates at the good will,.They have beautiful , pattern.Have a table I am going to redo and try the tiles on the top.I do plenty of house work but try to get onvolved with something stimulating.
I am fortunate that I have people who come visit and share my interests.
This is the most I can hope for as I made the choice to keep hubby at home and care for him.

Ditto, Ditto, and DI-TOE!!!

Farm girl, you are right. I think we are all tired. But you have hit the nail on the head about why. Spouse or parent. Their struggle is our own. While I have the comfort of knowing that it is natural for my mother to decline, when/if I care for H I think it will be so much harder.

Hugs to you.

I know how you feel.