I don't come here as often as I used to but I still pop in.
On the 25th it will be 3 months since Mom passed away.
Her room is all cleaned out now and I have redecorated it with wicker furniture.
I miss her more and more every day. I still cannot believe that she is gone.
I miss the talks we had, I miss her at the dinner table, I miss brushing her hair, and all those things I did to help her get ready for bed.
I wish she would come back and let me know she is OK.......she promised me she would.
She is going to be a great grandma again....I want her to know that. I want her to hold my babies, baby.
Mom, I miss you.............

Thanks Patti -

But remember, your mother is also looking upon you as you sleep to. Look at the billlions of stars that come out at night. She is that bright shiny light making sure you have a good nights rest.

Steve

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Your mother is there when you first see the day light every morning. And your mother is there when you close your eyes and fall asleep at night too.

Thank you OC....that is just beautiful.

Thanks, We both know he's still around as things happen and we know dad's hand is in it.

Awwww, Mar. He knows what a man your son has become. And, I am sure that he sees what you are doing and how hard you are working. I'm sorry, honey!!

It's been 8 years today that my husband died from rectal cancer at 43 years old. Taking care of my mom I really have not had the time today to dwell over it. It dawned on me about an hour ago that I never even made the cemetery today. That's OK as he never wanted me to go there and cry after he died he said. I just miss him so much and wish he was still with me. He was my anchor with my dad and I wish he was here to help me with my mom and to be able to see what a man Dan has become. He'd be proud. I love you Doug and miss you.

Your mother is your guardian angel now. She can see you and your family. She knows her little grand child is on its way!

Your mother is there when you first see the day light every morning. And your mother is there when you close your eyes and fall asleep at night too.

Is said to be remembered is like not dying at all. But to be forgotten is worse than death.

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I've always believed that love never dies, and our mothers and other loved ones are always with us, and I still do, but it sure doesn't take away the ache of wanting their physical presence, their touch, their smile , the look of love in their eyes - all those and more.

DITTO to dat!!!

When you loose someone you love so much, you never stop missing them,y mother passed 2 years ago this Oct.The beginning was the worst.So many things reminded me of her.The one thing that caused so much pain was I would remember her when she was at her best.The many times she would see me and give that smile of admiration and pride that I was her daughter.I would surprise her and meet her after work.She would see me and have this biggest smile.Then she made sure all her friends knew me.They were so much like family as so many worked with her for 54 years.The I recall those last days.The change was so dramatic .That is what hurts the most.Sadly , the only way for her to be heald from this horrible dementia was to leave this earth.I found going to her grave, with my pepsi, and ,yes, a cigarette helped.I would sit on the ground and talk to her , crying uncontrollably.I would tell her how much I miss her and how sorry I was she was hurting for so long.Told her how sorry I was the ones I had intrusted her care failed us both.I tell her , when she was well, how self desciplined she was .Worked for 54 years , never sick days until she had her children.I find my self thinking about her when I am in the car, by myself , listening to a tape.Especially songs by Kenny Rogers.Old ones revised by him but popular in her days.I had times when I would hyperventilate just talking about her.It is better now.I have those moments.I have been to the grave twice this week to place flowers and plant bulbs.I talk to her and my aunt, side by side.I go past the grave yard almost every day and say hi to them both.My crying is more tears then sobbing.You never fill the void brought by the death of a loved one who supported you in everything you do.The image of her last days will always be embed in my mind, but I know she would want me to grasp each day and make the most of it.She was wise for someone who only went to 7 th grade.She encouraged me to do what ever I was able to make life better.

After 4 years, I still miss my Mom every single day and I'm always on the lookout for signs that she is with me.

She would have been a great grandma, too, a year and a half ago and while I feel she can see her great grandson from where she is, I wish I could have seen her with him.

I've always believed that love never dies, and our mothers and other loved ones are always with us, and I still do, but it sure doesn't take away the ache of wanting their physical presence, their touch, their smile , the look of love in their eyes - all those and more.

My sympathy to you.

(((((((((( Patty ))))))))))

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Awwwwwww, I have tears in my eyes, Patty!!

Me too, big tears here Patty. I keep telling myself that I will someday be exactly where you're at and what you've expressed here. So sad, nothing is forever but our memories. A new little baby on the way. Beautiful. Your mother does live on in all her children.

Hugs and thinking of you in your sadness.

Awwwwwww, I have tears in my eyes, Patty!! Hang in there and let it out - holdin' in the grief is the worst thing you can do...

Can't tell you how many times I have cried for my dad (still do...) and he's been dead 41 years. Time may heal all, but it never stops the longing for our loved ones and the empty places at the table, at family gatherings and during quiet moments when it was just us and them... He never lived to meet his grandsons nor to walk me down the aisle a single time (TG he hung in there to make the trip with my sis... at least one of us got the big wedding, but he missed holdin' her girls, too...). He is still "right there" in my life - every minute of every day.

Hang in there, sweetie - cry as much as you need and don't apologize for a single tear!! Your mom will let you know as soon as you can let her in. Remember how much she enjoyed your babies and her grandbabies and smile through the tears - those memories are such sweet moments!!