It's been a while since I have visited here with all my beloved friends. Almost one year has passed since my mother in law died. I always hated to use that word for fear of hurting or offending others, but it is what it is.

I still cannot get used to the fact that I have to take care of myself and do things for me. Doctor appointments have slipped through the cracks for so long, I put them off and put them off until I got up one day and made 3 in one month. I totally skipped my Mammogram last year, it will be good to get that over with and get that monkey off my back. I have gained more weight in the past two months than I have in years, I actually kept 10 lbs off for two years, now I have to make myself eat right and pay more attention to myself.

Life has had a way of filling empty time slots for me that I didn't really realize after an accumlation of months. My Mother's roof was damaged by hurrican Ike, and windstorm is just now paying for it. The roof has leaked for months every time there was a small shower or rain. Now her ceilings in the whole house have to be replaced from water and mold damage. We did not realize the damage was slowly happening until a few months ago. My sister and I go one day a week and clean/remove damaged things. We are having a good time with Mom, teasing her and making her weed through closets and furniture either tossing or donating. Some days it is like playing tug of war, she either puts up a fuss, or gives in. I wouldn't trade these days for anything, but wish we didn't have the worry of her home being damaged.

Ok, I have rambled on enough, just wanted to share how I am trying to move on and deal with the day at hand. I have not suffered the loss of a husband or child, and don't even want to think about how heavy that burden is. Just the wear and tear on my mind and body from two years of my husbands parents slowly deteriorating and passing on has been hard enough.

Big Hugs to you all, hope you had a nice Easter day.

Hi Blue,

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HUGS....keep us posted

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I still cannot get used to the fact that I have to take care of myself and do things for me

Hum is that me talking? I can't believe it has been almost 7 weeks I'm getting a distinct feeling that this grief journey is a long one that takes it's own good time.
Sorry about the damage to your Mother's house but it sounds like it has a bit of a positive side too. Don't stay away so long let us know how you are doing.