I know now why I'd had such a rough time this past few weeks. I was trying to talk myself into moving back in the master bedroom, and using Mom's bedroom suit. Her's is much nicer than mine.

I finally decided, I was ready to move back in my old bedroom, but move my furniture back in there, and move hers to the room I'd been sleeping in for the last 20 months.

Yesterday, I started moving furniture. I'd take enough drawers out of one piece, till I could pick it up, slide an upside down rug underneath one end. Do the same to the other end. With wood and ceramic floors, upside down rug moves furniture faster than greased snot

I'd got all I could move done, then called and nephew helped with the big dressers. They both had mirrors on them, and I don't do mirrors since the 1986 mirror accident where I got a lot of stitches in my leg.

So all is now moved. I feel more comfortable, and calm now, and feel good with my decision.

I ordered a new spread for Mom's bed, as the other one, every time I look at it, it just reminded me so much that she was missing from the bedroom. I can't explain it. But I think a new spread will help.

Maybe somewhere down the road, I will use her bedroom suite. Just not now.

I know Mom wouldn't want me stuck in the other room, and not move back into the master bedroom. I'd given it to her when she moved in, cause I knew she got up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom a lot. Master bedroom has 1/2 bath.

Now, to move pictures, and get both rooms all settled. I'm putting that off till next week. My sister has been asking me to boat ride on weekends lately. I'm not missing a boat ride, for stuff I can do next week!

I been taking every invitation thrown at me to get out. I never turn down an invite. Weekends have been busy with boat rides. And with all the pics I take, takes me a few days to sort through them, as to what to keep, and what to delete.

So right now, my frame of mind is a lot calmer. I think the one thing that was tormenting me, was making a decision as to which bedroom suite to use now. I wanted so much to be able to use hers as my bedroom. I finally realized I can't do that right now. After making that decision, I knew it was time to do the moving. At least I know I can live with the decision I made about bedrooms.

Mom's bedroom suite to my surprise, fit well in the room I'd been using for so long. I think once I get the angels out I want to keep (that room is where her angel collection goes), and a new spread, and in a different room, it won't hurt so bad to see it. I know that may not make sense to some.

Her bedroom suite like it was, just made me so lonely to go in there. So far, I haven't felt that way about it being in the other room, and I have to go through it, going out back. Till the new spread comes in, I flipped her comforter over to the other side, that I rarely saw.

I feel I really made a milestone yesterday moving stuff, and getting back in the room that was hers since she moved in with me. I'm ok with it, and that means a lot to me.

That's a huge step. Good for you. It's sometimes hard to make that first change after someone is gone. We had a tough time when my grandma passed. Hang in there, it will become a little easier.

{{{Hugs bnot}}} We all move at our own speed, and good for you..

Thanks Merrwid. I'm trying to call it the large guest room now. Old habits are hard to break.

The spread came Friday from overstock.com, and it looks really good in my large guest room. The room looks so different now.

I'm still doing fine with the change.

Honey, can you stand one more piece of advise?
You might have Mom's old bedroom set, and it might be in the extra bedroom, but please try to stop thinking about being in Mom's old room.
It's YOUR bedroom, and someday you might switch out bedroom furniture again. A new spread really will perk up that extra room, and I know you'll find just the right one some day soon.
Good for you, girl - you might think you're taking 'baby steps' - but they're taking you exactly where you need to be going!